Today I was reminded by one of the many apps on my cell phone that "time" is moving way to fast. See the app that reminded me of this is called "Timeshop." I got an alert that it was ready to show me all my previous postings that occurred on this day- 1 year, 2 years and so on. Well, of course I looked at the alert to see what it had come up with. As I was viewing the app it hit me that this app is reminding me how fast time is flying by me. I was sitting there at my desk (yes I work full time currently as a means for financial stability).. which is an added reminder and guilt all on it's own.
Anyways, there I was looking at the pictures from the various years- all of my daughter. Seeing all the amazing, wonderful moments and milestones when all of the sudden wham the overwhelm sense of sadness and guilt washing over me. My mind raced to all the moments I worked and missed watching her grow up or how fast time as gone by in a blink of an eye. It was a moment of reflection and wonder. The pain of this knowledge weighing down upon my heart. It's not the first time that I have felt this or realized that the cycle of life is moving fairly quickly. How many times have you felt this? I know that I feel it more often than I care to admit sometimes.
However, at the end of feeling, this sadness and crushing guilt, I realized that even through life is moving around us at light speed sometimes, it's those little moments that truly matter. It's the moments that our hearts connect to those around us. It's the moments that we stand still and watch as life moves and changes. That it's okay to feel the lost of those moments. That it's okay to look back.. Just as long as we remember that there are new moments awaiting in the present to be experienced and witness to...
That no matter what life will continue to cycle..
My first post is from Brene Brown. The first time I read the 10 guidepost to wholehearted living just floored me to my very core. It was the very thing that I had been working towards for a long time but just didn't know it. Have you ever had that feeling that you are working on something or towards something but just don't know what it is or how to figure it out. Well, there was my "AHA" moment. It was actually in words and I knew it. I now have it posted in so many spots from on my frig to on the family cork board to in my office and on all my blogs from work ones to personal ones.
Well, I hope some part if not all of it resonates with you as much or as little as needed.
From Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live,
Love, Parent, and Lead by Brene Brown
1. Cultivating Authenticity: Letting Go of What People Think
2. Cultivating Self‐Compassion: Letting Go of Perfectionism
3. Cultivating a Resilient Spirit: Letting Go of Numbing and Powerlessness
4. Cultivating Gratitude and Joy: Letting Go of Scarcity and Fear of the Dark
5. Cultivating Intuition and Trusting Faith: Letting Go of the Need for Certainty
6. Cultivating Creativity: Letting Go of Comparison
7. Cultivating Play and Rest: Letting Go of Exhaustion as a Status Symbol and Productivity as Self‐Worth
8. Cultivating Calm and Stillness: Letting Go of Anxiety as a Lifestyle
9. Cultivating Meaningful Work: Letting Go of Self‐Doubt and “Supposed To”
10. Cultivating Laughter, Song, and Dance: Letting Go of Being Cool and “Always in Control”